Learning To Live With Me

Well, I said I was a 'big girl' and could handle being without my other half. I lied. It's not that I mind being by myself @ times, just not liking this all the time. Separation Anxiety usually applies to children, but I have the heaviest feeling when I know I won't see him for weeks at a time. Even though this is nothing compared to those military families who must be apart from their loved ones for months or even years at a time, there is a large gap when he's away that just cannot be filled. I'm wondering if I'll actually get adjusted to it or if I'll have to continue to tell myself "we can do this" everytime he leaves. In our almost 30 years of marriage we've been apart for not more than a week at a time and that was temporary during a few jobs. Making a bigger deal than necessary? Probably, if I blog it out, I can fill just a few moments of the alone time.

God is already giving me opportunities to use this 'free time' in a way that will benifit others and glorify Him. Now I must be careful to listen to His bidding and obey. He knows the best way to make the time go by quickly and I just have to remember that it's not all about me. Certainly the Lord knew from the very first morning Monty drove out for his extended leave that I would be more available for His plans to be carried out. I do gain comfort from the realization that while He teaches me to 'live with me' I can be useful to Him. Okay God, let's fill it up.